This post is loooonnng overdue and I am really sorry. It actually isn't really fair to any of you who have been there for David and I the past few weeks because you all deserve an update. To be honest an update has been hard to write because we have no new information.
I honestly don't remember what I wrote on April 22nd because I have almost blocked that day out. (I just went back and re-read it!).
We have found out it was the kidney David was supposed to get who pulled out of the chain. We think some of the chain was able to happen but obviously not all of it. But we literally have heard NOTHING from anyone about what is to come or what really happened.
David is doing pretty good in my eyes. Sure, he has had some really hard days, some better days, and some days where you just do what you have to do. I have been the same. We are back to "normal" life. No longer anticipate life with a kidney like we did two weeks ago, but still hold to the Truth of God and that HE WILL provide a kidney...just not yet.
We have been blessed with so much encouraging scripture, one day I will post it all. But for now, I have been holding close to Psalm 91. A good friend and mentor of mine gave me a book about Psalm 91 right after I returned to school. This book breaks down God's umbrella of protection that is written in Psalm 91. God does not WANT us to hurt, he WANTS us to run to him, under his wings and cling to HIM for protection (Psalm 91:4). I am only through the first 4 verses but I am so thankful for the promises of Psalm 91...without HIM we would not be doing as well as we are.
I was sitting here thinking about what life was like before dialysis. I honestly don't remember. I don't remember what it was like to not have the commitment to dialysis. I feel horrible, like I am being so selfish thinking this way because dialysis is saving my husbands life. And even though it effects me....I don't deal with it like David does. I don't know how he stays so strong.
On the days where I don't know that I can keep going, I stop and think of what he deals with and it gives me strength. David is such a strong man.....he is truly my hero. He fights every day for me and I love him so much. I have had plenty of pity parties for myself lately. Thinking of David and his strength (from God...clearly) I have to pull myself out of the slump I put myself in and put my big girl panties on and go on with life.
So what has life brought us the past few weeks? Well...I caught a groundhog that has been living under our house for the past 3 yearsish. (yes i used a live trap......yes I called David's step-dad up from Lancaster to come help me release it....yes I was scared of it....lol).
We have spent lots of time with our family. We have been working a lot (end of the school year fast approaches). David has been keeping busy at church working in the sound room on Sunday mornings. We have been enjoying life together. Whatever life God lays before us we choose to enjoy it together.
Thank you so much for your prayers, support and hugs. It hasn't been easy but we are doing much better.
***Stay tuned for Dash for Donation news SOON!
Love,
Alice and David
